Over the past week I have become so utterly disillusioned with the state of anime blogging, the utter nonesense and drama that goes into many peoples writings and just the politics in general that I wonder if it’s worth it anymore. It does not bring me any joy anymore like it used to, having to constantly fend off personal attacks from people who take issue with me telling them that I think they are on the wrong track and reading all the blogging to bitch rants that seem to dominate animeblogger as a whole. I don’t really want any part of it anymore…..at least for the time being. Like before I think I really just need a break from it all or it’s going to just turn me back into the angry anime fan I used to be. Believe it or not I don’t like arguing with people all the time, but I like to debate topics of relevance. Many facets of anime blogging have ceased being relevant for me and now look like the kind of partisan pissing contests you see when you turn on C-Span. I don’t want to deal with people like DarkMirage, Ascaloth and dmrchrs0 anymore with their tendency to try and make me out to be some sort of spoil sport/monster. You want your audience of people who like to see you bash something or someone for the sake of it, you can have it because I don’t want that audience. That I hope settles that aspect of things.
I also don’t want to be a part of a community that encourages everyone to think about, write about and like the same things. You read so many blogs and it’s all the same basic ideas, memes and arguments. They make you feel like if you don’t like “x” then you are a moron and like wise if you happen to like “y”. There’s also generally way to much ego stroking going on with people playing themselves up and the commenters responding in kind. I didn’t sign up for this to achieve some sort of personal cult status, I signed up to talk about anime and to express my enjoyment of it, while also talking about ways in which I feel it can improve. My intention is and always has been to generate meaningful discussion about anime and anime related material, and animeblogger I feel has long since ceased to be about such a creed. The name animeblogger itself even feels like a misnomer now.
As it stands I’m probably going to finish my Gundam 00 posts and then I’m going to sit out the Spring 2008 season. Yes that means no Code Geass or Macross Frontier blogging after all. Considering it won’t really be popular on animeblogger to write anything but scathing rants about Code Geass I don’t see why I should bother.
Overall I am mostly jut thoroughly disappointed that the experience hasn’t been what I imagined it as Animehistory approaches it’s first year anniversary. When it seems like the new ideal is to just ramble incoherently when blogging and to cram as many internet memes and one liners into your articles as humanely possible rather than to to put some actual thought into what one is talking about, I’d rather take my business to the Animesuki Forums which have always been good to me in regard to thoughtful discussion. At least then I can see if things improve or if they continue to get worse from a safe distance and say I played no part in it.
And since I know that it isn’t entirely fair to condemn the entire animeblogging community, I will say that there are some reads I have enjoyed and will continue to. http://animanachronism.wordpress.com/ has been an absolutely wonderful read to date with it’s intelligent and thoughtful discussion on anime and I actually consider the host IKnight a personal online friend at this point for always supporting Animehistory and adding some very excellent comments to this site. http://randomc.animeblogger.net/ has been a hallmark of the community too with it’s almost up to the minute news and excellent to the point coverage of anime series. I honestly don’t know where Omni finds all the time. And there are others too.
Still the negativety is rapidly starting to overpower the good parts of animeblogger and frankly it’s starting to make me a little negative too if this article is any indictation. So it’s vacation time again folks and I apologize to the good people who do like reading my articles. I thank you again for your support and kind words, for trying your best to help me in my desire to bring a little life back into the discussion of anime. I will be back I promise. I’m sure Omni will take care of blogging Code Geass and that DeathKillz might want to take up the mantle of blogging it as well.